Love unloved

I loved you, but you left me
A shell of what I was before
Trust and faith mere words
And I believe no more.

I loved you, abiding
Loved you with every breath
And you trampled that feeling
Crushed to its death.

I loved you, deciding
Forevers were meant to be
And now I know you bore
No such feeling for me.

That stubborn foolishness
Myself I constantly berate
And let my love rankle and fester
Slowly poisoning into hate.

Oh sweet nectar of love
Heady feelings oh wine
Now rancid and noisome
Eating this heart of mine.

I wonder if I loved really
This so controls and does fetter
Myself imprisoned: I could be free
Indifference so much better.