For Maa
Growing up I always knew
No matter what else would falter
You would forever be for me
My steady rock of Gibraltar.
You always seemed to scold
Harsh reality set store
No time for fancy dreaming
But I always loved you more.
Teenage was painful- more so
Such examples already set
Living up to your expectations
Railed:"Need I be perfect"
Did not see dire situations
Only your image suffering a blow
You too allowed your mistakes
I only realize it now.
Over the years learnt acceptance
Grudgingly, but Fates are kind
Not only our blood relationship
Together forever will bind.
Something others saw, I liked
Then tried constant prove untrue
Now cannot get away from it
Maa, I am so much like you.
For Babba
Today when I need you
I realize it is so unfair.
That I cannot call or mail
Because you are not there.
Things changed a lot after you
Some things reduced to a shard
'Twould been the same, even later
Losing a parent is always hard.
Eight years, pushed away all memory
Froze all feeling, joy and pain
Hurt more remembered, decided
"Never shall I feel this again"
Avoided most talk about you
Politely icy to any mention
A calm undisturbed surface
Hiding undercurrents of tension.
Sometimes the resolve snapped
And then bitter tears flowed
Stopped them before they cleansed
Once again a calm surface showed.
Eight long years quiet silence
Just talked to someone who knew
Realized, what I have missed
Saw my own reflection through.
The glass tower finally broken
The truth at last seeing
My father, the fallible person
The lovable human being.
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